Mai thoughts...

There are times when I'm here in Japan and I completely forget that I have another family, well, several of them including my family of friends, back in America. I suppose that my family here in Japan whom I've met only two weeks ago have really done a good job on me, but there are times that I really miss my friends and family back at home. Last year I wasn't feeling homesick very much and was enjoying myself in Japan doing what I love to do, helping kids (I refuse to call it teaching, I'll still try to steer away from being a teacher!!!...somehow) learn and I guess I was trying to do the same thing again.

The only problem this time is that one of our teammates calls home alot during our freetime leaving me no time to call home when I'm free and the phone card that my family gave me... doesn't work! Also, the family that I am now with for the next week or so has three little adorable kids that always remind me of my baby sister at home who didn't know or understand that her big sister was going away for two months. I don't know if she cares or if she remembers me.

Last year, she was still very young and didn't remember who I was when I returned to America. This year, I'm not sure if the same thing will happen or not. I want to call home and see if she remembers my name or my voice or even who I am. It saddens me and sometimes I hold back my crying when I see my host parents with their children. It unnerves me that I'm this emotional because I got along fine, but this year makes it a little more harder. I miss my family alot and I want to talk to them and was thinking of using skype, even trying to pay for the three dollars a month just so I could call them via internet to my home phone just so I can talk to them, but my host family's internet won't allow my laptop to use their wireless and they don't have skype! I don't want to download it into their laptop unless if they want it and they don't really seem to want it either so I'm a little stumped.

Hopefully, I find an international phone and can try the number again. My host mom tells me that their phone seems incompatible in making international phone calls so I'm hoping that's it. Hopefully I can try again, but the time difference will be my only problem once I find out if I can use the card numbers or not.